Life and God

I know that I am not writing about the things that I said I was going to write about but this is what is on my heart today and all week. I need to ramble for a while.

 

Wait, trust, rest and hope have been on my mind these last few days. I have had a life long theme of waiting for things to happen and because of that I have to work at the rest and trust part of my life. Then because of having problems trusting and resting I struggle with the hoping part of my life. I give up on there being any hope for my dreams to come true, my needs to me met or what ever else it might be at the time to be taken care of. NO, God has never let me down. No, God doesn’t know how to let me or any one else down for that matter.  He gives us the desires of our heart. I know that he does this when we have the desires that He wants us to have and the desires that He gives us. Yet so often I feel like He is letting me down and not fulfilling the desires that I think are from Him. My biggest question these days is to know how to discern if a desire is from God or me. I never want my will to get in the way of God’s in my life. I want His will more than I want my way. His will is always right and when I lean on God instead of my own understanding I will get His best.  I worry that I might miss His will if I’m not careful yet that can’t happen if I am truly trying to obey Him.

 

Then there is FAITH. How do you do what James 2 says to do? How do you work out faith when you don’t know for sure that what you are trusting in is from God? Should you try to work out the answer? Should you just sit back and do nothing about what you feel He says He wants in your life and let Him do it all for you? Where is the balance in all this? I know that I have a responsibility to pray every day all through the day. I also know that I am to keep doing the last thing that God told me to do until he tells me to do something else. I know also that every time I try to help God out I tend to get in the way of what He is trying to do in my life.

 

I guess that my conclusion for this whole thing is that I need to keep doing the things I know that God wants me to do and let Him take care of the rest in my life. As I am sure you all know THAT IS THE BIGGEST JOB OF ALL!!!!!! When you are a fixer like me you have a hard time with the whole taking your hands off and letting God put His hands on the situation. I guess it all comes down to letting God be Lord in my life.

 

Thank God that I have been trying to let Him be Lord in my life. Now having thought through all this I feel like I have been going in the right direction. Just wait, trust, rest, hope, and put my faith in Him. None are easy but doing all will put God where He needs to be in my life, right smack dab in the middle.