Control

I am soooo tired!!!! I think that it might be because I haven’t been sleeping much since my family left on vacation Sunday. I can’t wait for them to come home and they have only been gone for 5 days. Yes, I am counting the days till they get home. They have 13 days left.

Until they get home I will be working myself to the bone at my three jobs. Yes, I said three! I was planning on taking the summer off after a long hard year of teaching and what do I do? I take on three jobs and give myself more to do then I had to do before. I think I am trying to work myself into an early grave. OK the first job was just the first 7 weeks of the summer. I was helping at a summer camp. Then I was asked to tutor 4 kids this summer two days a week. I know the kids and love to be around them and thought that this would be fun. Then this week I was asked to help take care of an older lady that my sister cares for. I think I lost my brain some were along the way. I do hope to find it again. Actually I think I need to learn that very small word that is very rare in my vocabulary. What is this wonderful word that would take care of me over booking of myself? Simply this, NO. Maybe some day I will learn it and I will get more sleep. Until that day I will just live on Dr. Pepper.

I was thinking the other night as I was reading my Bible that the Christian life is kind of like learning to sing. You have to learn how to get out of the way for the right thing to happen. In singing you have to learn how to let your vocal cords do what they were made to do instead of making them do what you think they should do. In the Christian life you have to learn how to get out of the way for God to do the things that He needs to do. I most of the time I like to try and do God’s job like finding out what I am suppose to do with my life and may other things that I can’t think of right now. I think that I like to do it this way because I think that God’s job is so much easier to do then mine. You see I am a person that has to be DOING something all the time. I don’t sit much and I love to help people as much as I can. The thing I love must in life is to be needed and when I am helping others I am needed. When it comes to my walk with God though I need to do what He has said in His word and that is to just trust Him, take my hands off and let Him have the control of what goes on. Every time I let Him have the controls I am blessed above what I could ever hope for. Yet I get to a cross rode in my life and what do I want to do? Take control of what is happening so, “Nothing goes wrong and gets messed up.” Boy is that all confused! The whole point is this, I want God’s blessing more then I want my way. To get that blessing I have to take my hands off my life, give Him control of everything and trust Him that He DOES know best for me and my life. He has to be the one that DOES the controlling for me to be blessed and truly happy.